terror is a letter of the alphabet (notes, 5/25/2008)

5.25

appearance fatigue.

antienter
(antient-er.

the durable --
that which survives beyond its intention,
as a residue.

"if the passions are the limbs of dishonor"
--Hamann, Cloverleaf...

At Canessa Park.
Tyrone Williams, Laura Moriarty &
Brenda.

Diverse dangers of local pits to fall into.

(here it's MEN, Spicer,
DE Oppen.)

The general intellect.
Fragment on Machines
(Notebook VII)

The blood clots enough to
shave a knot from it.
We're native speakers.+ +Native informants.

An openness in our libidinal life was all
that was required to breed out of
us technicity & all that follows.

Signals. Tethers. Hoards.
Anticipation, grief.

"We're mammals"

All right, to think it
politically, which means to think
politics down to its elements.

Ethics wont let me sleep at night,
unless I drink to excess.

The solid sphere of thinginess
which permits us at last to
forget everything human.

"Reification is also a kind of
forgetting" --Adorno

This comment seems very generative to me.

Knowing what money & the
commodity-form might actually be.

The politics of insufficiency -- of
vigilance -- diagnosis & awaitment --

I dont want to perish under the
burden of that name --

the name.

delimits, designates, separates.

"particular language wages" --Brenda

lifts & separates.

Also stultification.

I had got used to
losing you in advance of the loss, so that when I lost you it was
truly the case that I felt nothing.

True Convenience Delivered.
--Wells Fargo ATM
(reminds me of the title of 17th cent.
British religious tracts)

They take what ever
available ontology, they
dont know how to check the math.

Ourselves a site of some variety of
registration.

"We seek everywhere for the unconditioned
and find only conditioned things"
-Novalis

"I am not fit / to carry your name"
-Will Oldham

The ictus.
The major point is not
the question of appearance from a
postulated vantage (spatial or
temporal -- at this point
hip deep in particular metaphysics
these categories are inseparable)
inextricable
from one another).

politics of amity.
stonewalled.
therefore faction.

wall, border, limit, strand, fence,
hedge.
initial division of field
brings binaries into being, and any
metaphysics must account for it.

relation to duration, persistence,
remembrance, "fame" (=kleos)

fashioning public objects means that
twenty years from now
some young man is going to come around.

thus we intervene
for real
in time.

that we would like to be governed by
what is perceived as necessity.
and why. all earth becomes a
hug machine & saves us
from this openness.

dialectic of dread and refuge.
(Virno, referring to the analytic
of the
sublime)

Someone's
phone goes off. O shame. aidos.
Tempo.
Impatient this morning.

I repaid Sara $100 that she loaned me when I was
flat broke & now she is flat
broke.

"that make love evolve
as a consequence of telling" --Laura

exchange is a factor.
I think I had a dream or hypnagogic state where I aw
words as texts -- their
woveness.

Through time, warp & woof.
The shuttle of the instant
passes through.

Gosh, we'll
need to know what memory is.
What potential, ability,
capability. Repetition &
rhythm.
Appearance &
the senses. Emergence into
sensibility. Production. Bodies. We
can not use any word as though we
know what it means.

Sound. Articulation.
Inscription. Score. The name.

Aristotle in Protrepticus
says philosopher must be like a
stranger --
bios xenios --

Sutro sutras.

Absent measure,
we'd agree
well how's it reinvented.

Judgment.
On what basis.

Ethics of a subject
opaque to self.
Shadowy determinants.
Its anchor hid,
& is to make it visible
sane aim?

"implied whip" --Tyrone

We'd contrast rhetoric with reason.

rhetoric which bears the same relationship to
justice as cookery does to medicine,
if I recall the Gorgias right.

Finish naming subject therefore made.

Tyrone is drinking Ethos Water.

How long they persist or can persist in
moribundity.

Persist or perish.

"I went up for parole
but they gave me langue
of long duree"

diary of a dairy.
Out to dinner
with Laura & Nick, me & Sara,
Tyrone, Brenda, Colleen Lookingbill &
her partner Jordan, and Rusty
Morrison. At a Chinese restaurant.
I'm likely to forget
everything if I dont write it down.

"obstacles to intimacy"

Tyrone taught a grad seminar on
Derrida -- Gift of Death,
Given Time & Positions.

My daughter, my ducats.

At Taylor & Tanya's for a talk
by Mike Basinski. Taylor offers
up a precis of the performance
at Artifact last night.

Morning writing & evening writing.

We emerge to ideal of a mind that
divvies, names the laws & knows them.
Our plastic

"in the manner of the fire"
--I Corinthians

the place is indifferent.
work. whats work.

Asking me to freeze. To sign up to be
froze.

cell motifs.
we move through &
whos it for.
whats the use &
whos it for.

performance / healing / combat.

state of the body.
that we conceive of it.
its vectors, its stabilities.

resolved, the reside attains
a resolution
inmixed with crud
excrescence of an
alloy,
dross all dressed &
dredged from dregs
for regular edges

generation (genesis)

"logic of sequence"

and whether I can get away from weight of
what,
how clarify, resolve --
& the peril of the resolution --
amphibology of all
appearance,
what comes to eyes &
what's measurable,
then reified insofar as
we act as though it is what
is -- fuck -- & then
our shoulders narrow.

matter mommy
grew so abject
language also
broke as joke
fractured as a rat in
moment of accont,
wrecked in the throat

"photography was a child of science"

extrusion benches.
consolidated.
gone back on
the closure. how
enclosing. is to delimit. the what.
how we think.
who will care & it suffices does it.

this is an insufficiently unearthed
from myself problem.
but maybe i'm not supposed to be at piece.
at peace.
the ethical outward.
Archilochus, Homer, Pindar, Plato.
Also plays, with Kevin.
My own writing.
If I have a
right to writing.

Absence of measure
means we have no proper, lack
of a proper

"Rain, there's some rain
and a woman with a haircut"
--Sara reading Basinski piece

Did I pay enough attention?

If you know that you have to go
how do you behave?

Exposure / shame.

occurs / occurves.

anticipation / attention / remembrance.
(Augustine)

[the tune from satantango]

a grammar of the error.

I was really loved.
Or, she said she realled loved me
and she thought she really loved me.
This can be considered as
a problem in translation.

"Terror is there all the time.
It's another letter of the alphabet."
-Mike Basinski

Reification set out on my trail.

This thing that I've made,
will it have power over me.

that we are sown in dishonor
but raised in glory

innovation in form. a broadening.

Yes on F. No on G.

We bridle 'gainst
a living term
the baddest faith
we groped today.

In the spelling bee
everyone one was stumped by the word
privilege.
P-R-I-V-I-L-E-G-E.

"You got a streak of ham in you
a mile wide"
--Kevin Killian

in scriptural economies
of saving & of
laying up.
grace is to get what
you have not right to.
Right. Right.

"I will break my own rules
as I find myself making those rules"
--Mike Basinski

prolific.
but what grants value.
if we auto- valorize,
goving out on a limb with
the speech act that
may or may not *take*
exposure
there of what emergence (social)
prior to bifurcation.

bitumen. tar & pitch. /
like,
gathering. legein. (Jen
Scappetone.
Gathering up whatever will suffice to
swap for something.
Kulch.cap.)